July 5 Sunday, 2015

July 5 Sunday, 2015 2pm At the library. I woke up showered and cleaned up a little. Writing through this blog and hopefully you guys are liking this and it helps when your out of element. I like to wish everyone a happy 4th of July weekend. I am waiting for my mom to come home. It's not the same without the love of your mother near you. It's a awkward feeling, not a bad one, a strange yet certain downsized feeling. A lot of friends from the neighborhood are coming through my mind on this day of rest. My brothers especially. I love my family very much. Pops made steak and it turned out great and didn't even need to use the grill. I can't wait to go home and "chow". Think I'll pick up a soda while I head home. 730PM Lowkey day been laying low. A rest day doing some reading. I'm not going out. Jessica text me started tripping on a bong I tripped on. Better the bong then my face. Have no income. You burn bridges when you ask for something. Oh well I guess this the way life goes. Jessica is ADHD but I have love for her. The fact we had a good time last night and it all can go to hell because she wants worries me. I'm questioning her maturity with our current situation. I'll have to look into her background where she comes from. A well off family who probably spoils her riches. It's makes sense I'd carry this weight. An honest mistake. I tried to do a good thing and be nice keep his hopes up so our night wouldn't get messed up. A good night into a bad day I wish she could see my feelings and the way I feel about her."Baby I rarely goo out, but I took a chance with you. " Part of me says she is immature. Another says she just wants me i her life. wherever you may be Jessica I care aout you, I'm thinking of you. 7:50PM 9:12pm I'm learning to take criticism with you from the people I care about. 10PM Mom came home. She brought a lot of goodies. Trigo (handmade), dulces (home made), carne secada (home prepared), chile (homemade). Her presence feels nice. I'm understanding what missing means. I'm stuffed. Like hibernated bear! Goodnight. Miguel Meza